Moving house.

the story of moving from a house full to a house empty.

so... i used to live in a big 4 bedroom house with my mam, dad, four brothers, amelia and a cross rottie. till i had to move house.

Me and my mam have always clashed, things seem to be ok around that time of amelias arrival but things soon went back to normal and we was arguing all the time again and one day she kicked me and amelia out. my dad being my dad, wouldnt let me go (quiet close to my dad) so that night me and my dad had a serious talk and we thought it was about time i really did try and get a house, a few months earlier i had tried through council but nothing serious as my dad didnt want me in a shitty area. so we looked into private renting and things were looking good we had about 5 houses to view but none of them seemed suitable. after that no houses seemed to come up for rent in a nice place and what had a garden (because i really wanted a garden for amelia) this gave me time to thing about things like how was i going to afford to live and buy things, i needed everything for my house and by this time i was really quiet scared about it all as i thought i was just going to live in a house with a bed and my clothes.

so, a few weeks went by and still no luck, then i was talking to a friend one saturday evening and her mam was looking for someone to rent her house as soon as possible because he didnt live in hull no more. then on the sunday i went to view it and it was perfect. 3 bedrooms with a garden and a shower (a little added bonus) so my dad gave the lady the deposit and it was mine. i couldnt believe it, i was so excited but still so scared about it all.

through the next week me, my mam and my dad was on top shopping form and my mam and dad bought me so much... everything to put on my house from kitchen utensils to mine and amelias wardrobes and beds. i couldnt believe how happy i was, and that my mam and dad had done all this for me.

at the end of the week i got my keys, at this time me and craig had split up again but i bribed him to come and help me sort it all out. (as you read through my stories you will see that me and craig split up and get back together a lot) so there was, me, my dad, my brother josh, craig and not forgetting my aunty carol. some walls needed stripping, paint scraping off door frames, carpets fitted and general cleaning all over and that took the whole weekend.

then during the next week thats when it all come into place, everything got fitted in my house and put in its right place, by the end of the week it was perfect and it was all mine and my little angels.

so from then i lived in my own house with amelia and things with me and craig seemed to get better as we sorta had our own space and wasnt getting interrupted all the time.

it was hard and it still is now, even thought me and my mam didnt get along i miss being at 'home' but it has helped me and my mam as we seem to be getting along better now that were not under each others feet all the time.

the birth of my daughter

this is the story of how my daughter entered this world.

This is the story of how my daughter entered the world. it is very long as i am starting from the very beginning. 

I found out that i was pregnant shortly after my boyfriend birthday (7th september) basically my head was a mess and i didnt know what to do. At the time me and craig had split up and he was telling me to get an abortion. at the time i thought it was what i wanted, so i booked the appointment and one of my very close friends took me, we were there for about three hours, having so many tests done. then it was booked. i was just going to have the tablet and pass her through naturally but when i got to that appointment i decided that i wanted to have it done under local anastetic. that was booked for the 5th novemeber. (a date i will never forget.) i went home and just cried, then one person came into my mind, on person i knew would never judge me or tell me what to do but at this time i thought she would... it was my aunty carol. i rang her up, crying my eyes out and so she came for me after work and i went to her house, at first i dernt tell her but i think she already knew what i was going to say and when i eventually said it she told me not to go through with it inless i was really sure so at that moment i know this wasnt what i really wanted so i didnt do it :) plus, my parents were not very supportive at this time :(

fast forward a few months.

so here i am, layed in bed on the night of wednesday 2nd june. i was layed in bed thinking i wonder if tonight will be the night. (being due on 28th may) i was starting to get fed up by now, next think i new i woke up at about 12 and went for what i thought was a wee but it was my waters breaking, i didnt no this so i just went back to bed and back to sleep. at around 2:30 i woke up with a funny feeling in my belly, (those mammy reading this will no what i mean) so i woke my mam up and she just told me to got back to bed, so i just layed there wondering wether this will be the night. then i called craig to tell him. (as we were back together at this point) and he just told me to ring him when i was going to hospital and he would come then, (typical boy) so yet again i was just layed there thinking, then i noticed i had been having the same feeling around every 10 minutes for a while now so i told my mam and she rung hospital and they told me to get a bath and have some pain killers so i waddled off to run my bath then craig came. he started timing my feelings (contractions) then i noticed i had 2 in 10 mins and these ones were quiet a bit painfull so mam rang hospital and they told my mam to bring me in. as i was stood with my dad i had another contraction and leant over the banister, the rest of my waters had gone and my dad seen it all. i shot to the bathroom to try clean my self up before i got in the car. craig tried to get me off the toilet as i stood up i got a contraction and fell to the floor and that was it. that was were I WAS STAYING! i heard my dad say 'jenny come quick this baby is coming now' all my dignity had gone. with that my mam came in and she was on the phone to the hospital and was asking me all these questions and i didnt no what to say, then she asked if i felt the need to pust i was like YES! YES MAM I DO! she told me to calm down and push on my next contraction as she could see my babys head... i did and my mam was expecting her head to come out but her whole body came in one :) 

the paramedics arrived 8 minutes later and my midwife came 3 quaters of an hour later.

my little girl was born at 4.10 am weighing 7lb half an oz delivered by my mam.

hope you enjoyed my story if you have got this far lol 

this is me and amelia-rose when i finally got to hold her :)